Hindi ko na siya mayayakap...
Hindi ko na siya makikitang ngumiti, tumawa...
Hindi ko na siya makakasamang kumanta...
Hindi ko na siya maririnig magkwento tungkol sa pagiging panganay naming dalawa...

Wala na kong makakasama-sama sa pagkanta sa misa...
Wala nang tataas sa "kapayapaan" sa Kordero ng Diyos...
Wala na akong kausap habang naghihintay magsimula ang prayer meeting...
Wala nang magpapalakas ng loob ko pag nade-depress ako...

Momsy... aalis ka na...?

Paano yung Charismatic Community?
Paano yung Grand Choir?
Paano ang dream team?

Paano ako?

Ba-bye na?

:'-(

Currently listening to: Sa Diyos Lamang Mapapanatag
Currently feeling: in grief
Posted by starshineangel on July 20, 2008 at 04:39 PM | 1 told me

Be Strong, My Spirit

Be strong, my spirit
for the Lord’s love will prevail,
and His will is of goodness.
Though mind cannot understand
or heart cannot accept for now,
be strong, my spirit,
for His love will always prevail.

Pain is only now,
joy is forever.
Be strong, my spirit,
His love will never fail.
At the end of suffering
is glory everlasting.
Though mind can’t conceive
the mystery of His will,
Oh spirit, my spirit, be strong
His love will never fail,
His love will always prevail.

Yna Suello - 07/15/2008

July 15, 2008 4:30PM - my Momsy Wowie passed away. Mary Catherine, my loving best friend, my sister in Christ has left us. Now she has joined the choir of angels in heaven, singing praises to God, her love, her life. She is truly loved here in our parish community; so much! Lots of tears fell when the sad news broke out. Yet somehow, mine did not.

On the morning of July 15, as I prayed, I spoke to the Lord; my tears, my grief - I was being broken. I was supposed to visit her in the hospital that night, but my Momsy did not wait for me. On that sad, sad, morning, my heart was in pain, for even though my hope fights for her recovery, I had this part in me that told me my Momsy will be leaving soon.

Strong. My Momsy wants us, her loved ones, to be strong, for she doesn’t want us crying, she doesn’t want to see us grieving. Her death is saddening, but this death, her leaving this world, is her birth in Heaven. It may seem that God has taken her to Him because her mission has been accomplished, but I believe this is just the start. “I will be of more use to you in heaven, than here on earth,” St. Dominic told his companions in the congregation as he was about to die. Momsy has done lots of good deeds here on earth, but in Heaven, she will be able to touch more lives, protect more souls.

Even though Momsy has physically left us, in my heart she is much alive. She will always be with me, beside me, protecting me. She is now my angel.

My momsy and me

Currently listening to: Pauwi Na - Bukas Palad
Posted by starshineangel on July 17, 2008 at 08:40 AM | talk to me

St. Benedict of NursiaAfter lunch; oras de peligro. As I encoded cash receipts into the computer while listening to Cenacle music, I was getting bored - sleepy even. So I decided to recite the rosary instead - with the media player. After the five sorrowful mysteries, still my eyes were droopy. What to do?

What did I want to do? I wanted to recite the Liturgy of the Hours. But of course I can’t, I’m at work. So I looked for a way to listen to others reciting, much better - chanting, the Liturgy of the Hours.

I was kind of doubtful to actually find a site where I can listen to chanted lauds or vespers, but as a song goes, “God will make a way, when there seems to be no way.” Sometimes, He even connives with His saints to help us get through.

Today is St. Benedict’s day. I guess he can so relate with me that he helped me with my boredom. As I looked at the results of the google search I made on chanted Liturgy of the Hours. I found the perfect site: Monastery Podcast. The lauds and vespers, straight from the monastery of the Benedictine Sisters of Perpetual Adoration! Take note: Benedictine, right smack St. Benedict’s day. :D

Ah, the beauty of technology.

Now my soul is alive! ^_^

Currently listening to: Monastery Podcast
Posted by starshineangel on July 11, 2008 at 03:17 PM | talk to me

I would like to share to you a part of an entry from Godzdogz about the significance of music in preaching, with a title “Preaching through the Beauty of Music“. I really love this part that I am going to quote since it is so, so true. Read on, I know you’ll agree with me.

In that gospel of Matthew which our holy father Dominic loved and carried with him, we read that after the Last Supper, Jesus and his apostles sang a hymn and then went to the Mount of Olives. In the Acts of the Apostles, we read that when Paul and Silas were imprisoned in Philippi, they prayed and sang hymns to God, and the prisoners listened to them. In Colossians 3:16, St Paul instructs the Christian community to “sing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs with thankfulness in your hearts to God”. Hence Joseph Ratzinger has said that: “Right from the beginning liturgy and music have been closely related [for] wherever people praise God, words alone do not suffice.” St Augustine said that “only he who loves can sing” and the Christian is one who loves the God who has first loved us. Therefore because music expresses our Christian joy in salvation and hope of eternal life, it is right that it plays such a central role in our lives and worship. Moreover, as Timothy Radcliffe OP has said, “Music overcomes the darkness and speaks a hope for what we cannot imagine”. Music is thus a powerful form of preaching.

Finally, Pope John Paul II leaves us with food for thought, something to inspire us to cultivate and to draw from the treasury of sacred music and hopefully, to pray and contemplate with music. He said: “As a manifestation of the human spirit, music performs a function which is noble, unique and irreplaceable. When it is truly beautiful and inspired, its speaks to us more than all the other arts of goodness, virtue, peace, of matters holy and divine.”

(For the complete entry, go to the Godzdogz site.)

Personally, God has given me the wonderful love for music and singing which lately has been a great help for my prayer life. And as my prayer life deepens, so does my love for music. If in the past, I sing to feel good about myself, to show off my talent, or just to win contests, I now have realized that these reason do not match to THE ultimate reason why I can sing. My voice, like my life, has been given to me for a Divine purpose and whenever I sing for the glory of God, I don’t just sing, I praise. And in most effective ways, I don’t just praise: I preach.

Currently listening to: I Seek You For I Thirst - Bukas Palad
Currently reading: Ang Awit ng Ibon - Anthony de Mello SJ
Currently feeling: joyful
Posted by starshineangel on July 4, 2008 at 10:54 AM | talk to me

When all seems dark and pain you can't bear,
When the heaviness in your heart
seems to remove all reason for happiness,
be still and listen.

When the enemy comes from the inside,
and the coldness consumes you within.
When the good you do doesn't suffice
Sit still, please listen

Child, My grace is enough,
Enough to get you through,
In My time all will be well,
Rest on My grace for it is enough

Let your tears fall when words can't tell
Keep My words in your heart
They will comfort you as a warm embrace
I won't let go, remember,

Child, My grace is enough
Enough to get you through
In my time all will be well
Rest on My grace for it is enough

Child, My grace is enough
For I am always with you
In My time all will be well
Rest on My grace, be still in My embrace
Rest on My grace, My child
For My grace is enough for you.

Written: May 23, 2008

Currently listening to: Tinapay ng Buhay - Bukas Palad
Currently reading: A Purpose-Driven Life - Rick Warren
Posted by starshineangel on June 20, 2008 at 10:38 AM | 1 told me
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